Wonderings to Pursue

Musings about the big and small

Selah February 28, 2011

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I had a wonderful time last night at the Selah concert in downtown Baton Rouge.  My friend Kayce and I went to the concert together. We had trouble getting there because there was also a Mardi Gras parade downtown last night.  Every other road was closed! We finally made it, though! 

The Easton’s 1897 Bible Dictionary defines selah as a word frequently found in the Book of Psalms, and also in Hab. 3:9, 13, about seventyfour times in all in Scripture. Its meaning is doubtful. Some interpret it as meaningsilence” or “pause;” others, “end,” “a louder strain,” “piano,” etc. The LXX. render the word by daplasma i.e., “a division.”

Selah…the idea of a break…a pause.  I think we all need selah in our lives!  The word is frequently seen at the end of a line in a Psalm…a break before the next line.  In our lives we go through various seasons.  Some of us are ending a particular season and others are beginning a new one.  It is important to reflect before jumping into new things.  What was I to have learned from what I have just been through?  What is God preparing me for now?  We sometimes jump from one thing to another without ever really considering the bigger plan.  I am reminded that too often I am like a hamster on the wheel…spinning and spinning, but going nowhere.  Could that be because I don’t rest or pause enough to see where I’ve been and evaluate where God’s leading next?  hmm.


From Hitchcock’s Bible Names Dictionary (late 1800’s) [hitchcock]:


Bible Study is a Good Thing February 22, 2011

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I just got home from my weekly Bible Study, and I am reminded that studying God’s Word is the best thing I can do to feel better about my life.  God meets with us when we read His Word.  We hear His voice and discover His way of doing things. I am so grateful for Bible study groups! 

Attending Bible study also allows me to learn from other Christians.  This is a huge blessing!  The ladies in my group come from such different backgrounds and we are each in different seasons of life, but together we share what God has revealed of himself to us through His Word during the past week.  The Bible study I attend is all the way across town from my house, so my friend Maranda and I ride together each week.  Maranda and I have known each other for about 15 years.  Wow!  That’s hard to believe!  She was the one who invited me to attend this weekly Bible study. 

Each week, she and I chat about what has happened over the past week.  Sometimes she has the most to share and other times I do.  Tonight was a “me” night. I have had a difficult week, and I expressed that I was discouraged because I felt like I should have been handling everything better.  You see, I have this picture in my head of the way it would look for me to honor God with my words and actions during difficult times…I should keep a serene smile on my face (Kind of like the one sweet Melanie from Gone with the Wind always had on her face…even while her good-for-nothin’ husband was wishing he was with Scarlett!) I should say spiritual things like, “I’m just trusting God to carry me through this dark time and He’s filling me with peace beyond understanding.”  Other people should wonder how I am able to keep it all together and still manage a smile.  And to top it all off, my children should “Rise up and call me blessed”!  I know this may sound crazy, but I also know it’s true.  I want to get it all right.  I want to follow God perfectly.  Why?  I don’t want Him to be disappointed with me.  Why else?  I want others to want what I have…Isn’t that what we’re supposed to do?  Show the world that God makes a difference in our lives?  If I can’t show that to others, then is it true in my life? If I struggle to maintain a positive outlook on life, then what have I said about what I believe the Lord can do in my life? Hum…  I think I have more to say about this, but I need to think on it a bit more. 

Let me conclude with an idea that Maranda shared with me tonight.  God’s grace is ready to be received each and every day.  I know that God’s grace is sufficient and that he will give peace in hard times.  I somehow confuse this, however, with having a constant state of peace or calm.  Maranda reminded me that, like the Israelites had to rely on God every day for manna, I need to go to Him every day for grace.  It’s not a one time fix.  He will give me grace for the moments.  I must “let go and let God” every day.  Maybe it does get easier, but it never ceases to be a constant act of my will to surrender myself to the Lord. Be encouraged…our God is bigger than your pre-conceived ideas about how things should be, and He loves you and He loves me too much to allow us to cling to errant beliefs!


Taking care of Mom and Kids February 20, 2011

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I have entered a new phase in life.  I have entered that ever-growing group of the population who is caring for children and parents at the same time.  As I navigate these rough waters, I wonder how others have made it work.  I find myself unsure of how much to “mother” my mother and how little to “mother” my teen-aged son.  I’m not really ready to talk about my mom yet and I’m not yet comfortable blogging personal information that affects those I love.  For now, I’ll just say…IT’s HARD!  I re-read my post from a year ago, and I must have decided that writing a blog was not a part of my daily plan, huh??? 🙂  The truth is, I can’t ever remember my password!  I’m a terrible blogger!  I find my 24 hours full right now.  I don’t know that I have made all of the “right” choices this past year, but I do know that God has brought me through some pretty dark times these past ten months.  I have a faith that is stronger than before, and I’m ready to allow him to work in my life in ways I probably haven’t been before. I hope to write again soon.  Until then, know that God love you!  He wants you to receive his love and share it with those you come in contact with and the mystery of His will work itself out!


What’s my mission in life? March 26, 2010

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From time to time we all have to make major life decisions. It’s at these moments that I find myself most seeking God’s will for my life.  I am walking through just such a season right now.  I am trying to decide how to make adjustments to my life so that I can be less busy all the time.  I feel like I need my life to operate with a DVR pause button so I can catch up on all things I need to do!  I know I’m not alone in this, and I know many people probably have much more on their plates than I do, but I want off of the “crazy train.”  So, I’ve decided I must figure out what I can let go of and what I must keep in order to maintain a healthier (mentally, physically, emotionally, etc.) life for me and my family. 

Last night as I was praying about a decision I need to make regarding a change in my career life, (Okay, truth be told, it was more me just worrying about it for an extended period of quite time with my Bible in my lap!) I decided I should review the things I had underlined in a Women of Faith Bible study called Resting in Him that I had begun the day before.  In the foreword Patsy Clairmont writes, “We were not meant to do all that is before us, as admirable as it might sound.  Doing too much will strip our gears and drain our energy tank.”  These words stopped me, and I had to think about them more.  How many times in my life have a run myself ragged trying to do it all!  But how do I KNOW what to let go of??? 

I moved on to reviewing lesson one. It had me consider Jesus’ schedule.  Often He went off to a solitary place and prayed.  While I was aware of this fact, I don’t think I every really thought about the fact that if Jesus, who was still God, found it necessary…not just for fellowship, but for direction as well…to meet with God regularly, then I probably need to as well!  Sometimes, I let that go.  Sometimes, I think I have so much to do that even though I would really love some quiet time with the Lord, it just isn’t possible for that day…even though I know that God is the one who made 24 hours in a day…even though I know that He created me for fellowship with Him…even though I KNOW that if I can’t find time in those 24 hours to spend a few minutes with Him, then I must be doing something He didn’t call me to do that day! 

Jesus knew why he was here.  He knew that he was here to demonstrate his love for mankind by making a way for us to be restored to a never-ending love relationship with God, but he was also here to heal wounds that were temporal and a result of our being human.  And if that wasn’t enough, he was also here to train up leaders who could take His message of hope into the future.  That’s a pretty big life mission, don’t you think!  That’s a lot to accomplish in 24 hours a day! 

Every day he made a choice to spend time with God.  I can’t even begin to imagine what they talked about, but I know that Jesus remained in God’s love and obeyed his commands.  John 15:9-11 says, “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you.  Now remain in my love.  If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in his love.  I have told you this so that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete.”  I bolded the words that give me a clue as to what Jesus and God discussed.  Even with such a massive life mission, Jesus was able to be filled with joy because he obeyed his Father’s commands and remained in his love.  Even though Jesus’ days were filled with preaching, and teaching and healing, he still knew which things to say, “yes,” to and which things to pass over because he began each day by spending time with his Father to find out what specifically He was called to do that day.  Because Jesus knew why He was here, he was able to joyfully walk through each day. 

Jesus accomplished His earthly calling one day at a time.  What a lesson to learn!  If I want to be filled with HIS joy (refer back to the verses from John), then I must follow His example…KNOW why I am here and then SEEK God’s direction for how to live that out one day at a time. 

Step one for me in this process was to spend some time trying to articulate in writing specifically what I think God’s mission for my life is.  It took some time, but I think I have been able to identify eight major objectives that I plan to use to guide my decision-making.  Going back to the Patsy Clairmont quote, I was not meant to all that is before me.  If I consider each decision I make (major life ones or even what to do with 15 extra minutes) in regard to whether it will help me to accomplish my eight objectives, then I should be able to know what to say, “yes” to and what to pass over. 

Lord Jesus, help me to learn from your example!


Must write something March 24, 2010

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I honestly have no idea what I am doing. I was encouraged by a friend to start a blog so that I could get myself in the habit of writing on a regular basis. Eager to begin, I followed her advice at once. I googled “free blogs” and set up my account within minutes. I sat at the computer for about 15 minutes trying to figure out how to make my blog look cool like all the other “real” bloggers. Sadly, I was unable to even figure out how to change my title from the standard “Shanbeaux’s Blog” to “Wonderings to Pursue” which is what I had HOPED to call this!! Anyway. The idea behind this blog is that that I frequently wonder about things. Each time I think of something, I’m going to post it here. I encourage you to respond with your own “wonderings.” I’m not sure that anyone other than myself will ever read this, but I feel really good about having started. I will call myself a blogger now! I will tell you my story another day, and I will continue to “improve” my very sparce page. We are all works in progress…and this page will reflect that!