Wonderings to Pursue

Musings about the big and small

Selah February 28, 2011

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I had a wonderful time last night at the Selah concert in downtown Baton Rouge.  My friend Kayce and I went to the concert together. We had trouble getting there because there was also a Mardi Gras parade downtown last night.  Every other road was closed! We finally made it, though! 

The Easton’s 1897 Bible Dictionary defines selah as a word frequently found in the Book of Psalms, and also in Hab. 3:9, 13, about seventyfour times in all in Scripture. Its meaning is doubtful. Some interpret it as meaningsilence” or “pause;” others, “end,” “a louder strain,” “piano,” etc. The LXX. render the word by daplasma i.e., “a division.”

Selah…the idea of a break…a pause.  I think we all need selah in our lives!  The word is frequently seen at the end of a line in a Psalm…a break before the next line.  In our lives we go through various seasons.  Some of us are ending a particular season and others are beginning a new one.  It is important to reflect before jumping into new things.  What was I to have learned from what I have just been through?  What is God preparing me for now?  We sometimes jump from one thing to another without ever really considering the bigger plan.  I am reminded that too often I am like a hamster on the wheel…spinning and spinning, but going nowhere.  Could that be because I don’t rest or pause enough to see where I’ve been and evaluate where God’s leading next?  hmm.


From Hitchcock’s Bible Names Dictionary (late 1800’s) [hitchcock]:


Bible Study is a Good Thing February 22, 2011

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I just got home from my weekly Bible Study, and I am reminded that studying God’s Word is the best thing I can do to feel better about my life.  God meets with us when we read His Word.  We hear His voice and discover His way of doing things. I am so grateful for Bible study groups! 

Attending Bible study also allows me to learn from other Christians.  This is a huge blessing!  The ladies in my group come from such different backgrounds and we are each in different seasons of life, but together we share what God has revealed of himself to us through His Word during the past week.  The Bible study I attend is all the way across town from my house, so my friend Maranda and I ride together each week.  Maranda and I have known each other for about 15 years.  Wow!  That’s hard to believe!  She was the one who invited me to attend this weekly Bible study. 

Each week, she and I chat about what has happened over the past week.  Sometimes she has the most to share and other times I do.  Tonight was a “me” night. I have had a difficult week, and I expressed that I was discouraged because I felt like I should have been handling everything better.  You see, I have this picture in my head of the way it would look for me to honor God with my words and actions during difficult times…I should keep a serene smile on my face (Kind of like the one sweet Melanie from Gone with the Wind always had on her face…even while her good-for-nothin’ husband was wishing he was with Scarlett!) I should say spiritual things like, “I’m just trusting God to carry me through this dark time and He’s filling me with peace beyond understanding.”  Other people should wonder how I am able to keep it all together and still manage a smile.  And to top it all off, my children should “Rise up and call me blessed”!  I know this may sound crazy, but I also know it’s true.  I want to get it all right.  I want to follow God perfectly.  Why?  I don’t want Him to be disappointed with me.  Why else?  I want others to want what I have…Isn’t that what we’re supposed to do?  Show the world that God makes a difference in our lives?  If I can’t show that to others, then is it true in my life? If I struggle to maintain a positive outlook on life, then what have I said about what I believe the Lord can do in my life? Hum…  I think I have more to say about this, but I need to think on it a bit more. 

Let me conclude with an idea that Maranda shared with me tonight.  God’s grace is ready to be received each and every day.  I know that God’s grace is sufficient and that he will give peace in hard times.  I somehow confuse this, however, with having a constant state of peace or calm.  Maranda reminded me that, like the Israelites had to rely on God every day for manna, I need to go to Him every day for grace.  It’s not a one time fix.  He will give me grace for the moments.  I must “let go and let God” every day.  Maybe it does get easier, but it never ceases to be a constant act of my will to surrender myself to the Lord. Be encouraged…our God is bigger than your pre-conceived ideas about how things should be, and He loves you and He loves me too much to allow us to cling to errant beliefs!


Taking care of Mom and Kids February 20, 2011

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I have entered a new phase in life.  I have entered that ever-growing group of the population who is caring for children and parents at the same time.  As I navigate these rough waters, I wonder how others have made it work.  I find myself unsure of how much to “mother” my mother and how little to “mother” my teen-aged son.  I’m not really ready to talk about my mom yet and I’m not yet comfortable blogging personal information that affects those I love.  For now, I’ll just say…IT’s HARD!  I re-read my post from a year ago, and I must have decided that writing a blog was not a part of my daily plan, huh??? 🙂  The truth is, I can’t ever remember my password!  I’m a terrible blogger!  I find my 24 hours full right now.  I don’t know that I have made all of the “right” choices this past year, but I do know that God has brought me through some pretty dark times these past ten months.  I have a faith that is stronger than before, and I’m ready to allow him to work in my life in ways I probably haven’t been before. I hope to write again soon.  Until then, know that God love you!  He wants you to receive his love and share it with those you come in contact with and the mystery of His will work itself out!